With our new, gigantic diets for Week 2, the stress of preparing that much food for two people —with slightly differing requirements for our individual meals— has been a bit challenging. Having to think about what food to make that fits our diets, then preparing, cooking and actually eating all of that food is pretty time consuming.
We both also started school last week. I am going full-time, and Adrian is going part-time. Along with my cafe job and Adrian's bookselling business, we have little time to rest. Our schedules look completely different, so we haven't been able to slide into a routine yet. We have even had to cut our usual amount of meditation by almost half to accommodate our new, fuller days.
Today, our third day on the new diet, the tension rose between us. We realized that the meal we had somewhat-planned last night was not as planned as it should have been. We knew what we wanted to eat but were not really prepared come lunch time, and that made the tension boil over. But in the end we were able to put our meal together and work things out.
Something you learn after being with someone for three years is that you will never know everything about that person, you only become aware of that person. The Project is also definitely a learning process, and I think we are lucky that we are doing the PCP together as partners. Adrian and I not only get to learn how to cook, but we are learning more about ourselves and each other.
Although we are sitting on the cushion much less, we have had to bring our practice into our daily activities a lot more. This is such a necessity, and we have both been trying to be more mindful of everything that we do. But this week it was really forced upon us because you must pay attention to what you are doing. I am really appreciative of that, even if it is hard right now.
We definitely haven't hit our groove yet, but that will come. Balancing our tasks efficiently while still remaining sensitive and aware of each other is our newest challenge, and one that we have to face together.
I love you Adrian!
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Hmm, I was thinking how great to be sharing all this but when things get tough, I get a bit grumpy so I can see it could magnify the bumps in the road. Just think of each other and all of the support you are getting and if you have to snarl, take it out on the cauliflower - it won't snarl back lol.
Thanks for sharing this part of your project with us. It's important to understand what happens in the bad times as well as the good.
And as for meditation, I've found a great deal of "Mushin" and present moment awareness in the midst of the training, particularly a tough set. As you said meditation doesn't always happen on a cushion.
I love you too, Em!
My BF was just diagnosed with Diabetes (wtf, he's totally fit and healthy) so now neither of us can eat anything junky. Let's just say it was a grumpy weekend, but we made it through okay.
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